Ever since the break-up, my life has been a mess. I stopped singing cause I could no longer sing. I stopped having wonderful adventures cause I have nobody to adventure with. I stopped working, simply because I needed a getaway. A getaway to possible mend a broken heart. I never realised how shattered my heart was until tonight.
I might have just hit one of the lowest point in my life.
It is going to take ages to fix this heart. I might not even have want this heart to be fixed.
Jeez, I should have never loved and I should have known that you were just like any other guy. Moving on so darn fast.
Time for a post to be reblogged:
I have never felt more alone. I never saw the importance in your presence and neither did I see how much love I had given in the past two years. I have never loved anyone that deeply before. I actually thought that we would be together til death do us part. We get married after your first promotion. We would buy an apartment, preferably somewhere near where I live now. You said you'd pay and I would choose everything. I actually already decided. I would have wanted cement flooring with white washed walls. Minimalist. Our bed would be low and every night, we would sleep side by side in bliss. Maybe we won't have children at all. We'd travel to crazy places together and spend everyday like it's our last.
Well, we have already had our last day. You told me that you wanted to just let everything go because it is not worth it anymore.
I really honestly (at one point) thought my life was all planned out and I would finally know what being happy is all about. I thought I had finally learn how to love. I thought so many things. I thought you loved me that much.
But obviously, they were just thoughts and not reality.
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