Rewriting my life. 

Screw it

I have never felt more alone. I never saw the importance in your presence and neither did I see how much love I had given in the past two years. I have never loved anyone that deeply before. I actually thought that we would be together til death do us part. We get married after your first promotion. We would buy an apartment, preferably somewhere near where I live now. You said you'd pay and I would choose everything.  I actually already decided. I would have wanted cement flooring with white washed walls. Minimalist. Our bed would be low and every night, we would sleep side by side in bliss. Maybe we won't have children at all. We'd travel to crazy places together and spend everyday like it's our last. 

Well, we have already had our last day. You told me that you wanted to just let everything go because it is not worth it anymore. 

I really honestly (at one point) thought my life was all planned out and I would finally know what being happy is all about. I thought I had finally learn how to love. I thought so many things. I thought you loved me that much. 

But obviously, they were just thoughts and not reality. 

I feel obliged to document my life properly.

1. Every time I travel, I will get a notebook from my drawer. I will take photos with my Sony DSLR. I will print them and paste them in my notebook (until it gets fat and ugly). I will write about my thoughts; both good and bad.

2. I will do an online visual diary whenever I travel. I will do up nicely, after learning my HTML/CSS.

3. I will... too lazy for anything else. Just the above two.

Well, before all that. I thought I would like to share

"My Current Obsession"

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a peek into how losers party

Disclaimer: Forgive the lousy quality. That is the best an iPhone and iTouch can do at a party. 

It all started with Saw asking us if we wanted to go for Audi Fashion Festival Party. I was like "OMG! YES YES! I NEVER GO BEFORE!!!" Little did I know that the whole event was by Belvedere Vodka! Ppl, yknow me, I DO NOT DRINK.

So here is our story

The night started out like that:

And the Vodka came out.

It was my first party ever, great crowd and all. 

Being the straight-edge Joey, I had to keep begging the mixologist to mix NON-ALCOHOLIC for me. And he did! 

There he is doing his thing. Yes, we call him MIXOLOGIST and not bartenders/waiters/mixer... I really wanted to bid him farewell with a handshake but Nat kept saying, "Don't be stupid. He will never remember you anyways" So I didn't. :'(

And we went back to the photobooth.

I actually asked the uncle/sir/man if we were wasting their resources and he simply said, ITS FREE!

The DJ is my new crush. JESSE MARCO ^^

Great music taste! THANK YOU <3<3

HELLO TO MY SCARY FACE BEHIND THE SPECS!

And obviously we went back to the photobooth!

And we ended the night with Nat's dad fetching us home :)

Time spent at work today was pretty entertaining. I kept telling my new friend, The Intern, that my teammate was hitting on her and she should be careful. I wonder if she believes me. The Intern is really quite funny. I asked her if she wanted to have lunch with me and she actually said, "ok". But we didn't had lunch in the end. After lunch, she asked me, "Where were you? I could not find you!" I felt bad, I wasn't serious when I asked her. 

Other than making new friends, I also drafted my first Chinese email at work. It was really difficult and the minds of 3 geniuses were not enough. Do know what we need? All we needed was the brain of just ONE China man/woman. It would saved us from Google Translate and the occasional hair loss from all the yanking. 

In other news, I have been thinking of starting a lifestyle blog. Terrariums & What Nots (Name of my latest notebook).

Tonight, I feel the most liberated. 

All that has been dropped; nothing but burden.

I can soar as and when.

As high as I want.

Without a care.

Because, I am free.

Today, I have statistically 50% chance to continue to be in the running for the title "The Final 1"