Waiting waiting waiting. Getting so impatient and I'm already having scenarios played out in my head. I really want nothing bad comes out of this. I'm immature, childish and just so crude with my words sometimes. I don't treat you differently. And when I called you "annoying", I didn't mean for the class to laugh at you. I'm a bitch, sorry. I wanted to slap myself. 

Sorry, I really don't know where I am getting at again. 

Anyway, I think I'm poison. About time we make our choice, in my opinion. To stay strong or to just stab myself. Can't live a day if my used to be NEG really disappears. 


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sat in the shower with the water running for an hour