Stuck in a rut - - - -

Yes, I had to search an idiom dictionary to see if I got the meaning correct. Now wonder I landed a B for General Paper. Screw it :-( <<< Old people use this faces and my transition from being a JC kid to a Uni student is the reason I am using that emoticon. Forgive me :-( <<< Used it again.

One word to sum this weekend - T O U G H 

The 6th day of the week was spent being tired from 1 - waking up late, 2 - walking around SMU's open house. Drank the world's worst tea at Coffee Bean. I know; the reason for the horrible tea is obvious. It's first name is Coffee Bean and "& Tea Leaf" is written at the bottom. 

Selecting a university course is even crazier than A levels!!! Scrolling through web pages all day and digesting all the information that would lead to that one decision that will change your life FOREVER! 

S T R E S S E D O U T ! ! ! 

1900hrs/01032013

Today marks the DAY I REALISE MIRACLES DO EXIST. 

I have been dreaming about my As results being 70 rankpoints and Cs n Ds flooding my result slip.

None of that happened, THANK GOODNESS! Instead I did well. In a state of shock and disbelief, reason below:

General Paper - B; sucks balls fuckmyass becuz of you I am a 86.6pter URGH!
Biology, Chemistry and Mathematics - A; babeh I am in love. What is this?! A miracle?
Economics - B; THIS IS THE TRUE MIRACLE! 

I know, I wish I was a 87.5 pter or even a 90. But truth be told, I AM NOT SMART. I just study hard. 

Now, I have to muster the courage to plan the future ahead of me. Impresario2013finals babeh~ 
The Final One TOP 60~ Lee Wei Song School of Music Performing Group~~~ Thank you for all the miracles and whatnots!!!!

xx

#throwbackthursday even tho' it's not Thursday

FRIENDS SINCE PRIMARY 1! I will definitely miss you, Chua Jun Hui! 

Have fun in the army and a super early Happy Birthday!

Tuckshop with NatWong, who I am missing a lot right now and Jun Hui

Gone

The warm morning sun filled the room with its yellow light; slowly. She was still in bed and buried in her blankets and the many pillows. Anybody would have noticed her swollen eyes and her gray skin but many had chose to ignore it. Slowly opening her eyes to blurry vision, she pushed her comforters away and sat  up; thinking. Thinking about all that had happen in the last 24 hours of her life. The words that hurt her so deeply, her apologies for her shortcomings and her realisation that some problems can never be solved. That was when she decided that day, she was not going to get better. Everything that seemed happy or lovely, reminded her she had lost all of her happiness and the love she had learned to recklessly give. Everything gay made her feel that the simple things they used to do together just 365 days back were never going to happen again. She rubbed her damp eyes and grabbed her glasses from her bedside stand. "Work," she murmured to herself. She did not want that. Facing people and pretending all is well; smiley and cheerful. That was not her anymore. 

She did not have to smile to look beautiful anymore because nobody will be there to see beauty in her.