I love you not only because you put a smile on my face.

One subject and 4 more to go. Yay~

Close to friendless


I mean it's probably nice to not have anybody in my life that really matters. Lesser things to manage. What a beauty :) 




In other news, cts are next week and I'm all ready to do badly for it :) Don't worry people you will see me do darn well for A's. 7 pointer disappoints no one.

The time of the year has come again. 


I feel the need to shop. Therapeutic in a way, ain't it? 


On hindsight, I start to feel extremely fat as I try on new clothes.


Things I have laid my eyes on:

I want this bag. I think its rly pretty.

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I'm screwed for ctsssss. Panic-attack this morning and JY had to tank it. Quite a bad job in comforting me though. HAHA, don't blame yourself pls

I think something like that might make me look slimmer
+ AA in the pool.

Had some awesome jap food today with the utterly popular fortune cat + shopping at an awfully packed Mango outlet. Never going for sales ever again.

I have been so bored with everything so I decided to start a little smth new. :)

I really should be studying right now but I decided that I shall give myself a break before I start cramming for Chemistry. Org Chem, I'm going to get your ass right after this.

I have been feeling nostalgic recently. Okay, since yesterday. I missed my friends so so so much! Pamela and Anu. They are really my dearest friends. I'm not sure if I'm on their list, but they sure are on mine. 

xoxo

xoxo

<3 Good Luck In Vienna!!!

Today was supposed to be a productive day. Today was supposed to be a good day with JY. Today was supposed to be many things. And they were. Honestly, there have been many times including sometime today, I doubt my feelings for JY. It's crazy yknow. This love thing. There is no book in this universe to teach me what "love" is. It's frightening. Sometimes I even wonder if what I am feeling is this "love" or another bad case of "infatuation". Just so stupid. I came to realise recently that it does not matter what we term this feeling to be. "Like", "Love", "Infatuation". It is all too similar for me to rack my brains over. We just want the person to be happy and we want to be with him/her. Enjoying their company with a cup of tea and some Carl's Junior fries. I mean, things as simple as that are always enjoyable with the person/people you love. You are probably reading this right now. Please know that we have to cherish what is before our very eyes - the present. Stop thinking about what will become of us in the future or if we will ever break up. There was a question on love, "You travelled to the future and found out that you and your boyfriend didn't work out. Would you end your relationship when you return to the present?"

Hi my dear, I do love you a lot. I don't know what will happen in the future. We might change - you and me. Things happen. So let us just enjoy what we have right now and stop fighting over our "What ifs"

x

In other news, Pam and Anu left for Vienna today. It was so much fun sending them off! :) I love them so much and I couldn't have asked for better friends. <3

I truly think I'm the worst person in this entire world. 

And inside me - sometimes, I tell myself that I'd give up my existence if everybody around is happier without me. 

x

Lego House by Ed Sheeran

I'm gonna pick up the pieces,

and build a lego house

if things go wrong we can knock it down

My three words have two meanings,

there's one thing on my mind

It's all for you

And it's dark in a cold December, 

but I've got ya to keep me warm

and if you're broken I will mend ya and keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love

I'll pick you up when you're getting down

and out of all these things I've done 

I think I love you better now

I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind

I'll do it all for you in time

And out of all these things I've done 

I think I love you better now, now

I'm gonna paint you by numbers

and colour you in

if things go right we can frame it, and put you on a wall

And it's so hard to say it but I've been here before

and I will surrender up my heart

and swap it for yours

x

Don't hold me down

I think my braces are breaking 

and it's more than I can take

It's time to look back and appreciate everything we've got. 

No matter how pathetic life seems to us, we are pretty lucky people - well, in our own way.

I have been spending the past hour of my life watching make up and hair tutorials that do not work on me - considering that I have short hair and my face has as little "contours" as a piece of paper.