wanted that to look like some cool vintage blonde girl. HAHA what a joke. Shall draw a series of faces of people during the holidays! :)

                       

Milo is always the best with a dinosaur mug.

Watched Avengers FINALLY. FUCKING AWESOME. This is why we should all go to the theatres. HAHA, it always much nicer on the big screen. <3<3<3<3 And the hottest of all the Avengers?

Good day good day good day. To cure myself of misery and tiredness, I have decided to drop all my worries. I should lead life wanting to be happy and not be so caught up with "expectations", "achievements", "As". I should learn to love and to do what I love. It seems like I always have so much reflections to do. A few nights ago, I had the biggest ass quarrel with him. And on the same night, I was telling him:

"Hey myluv, sleep early tonight. Prepared awesome shitz lunch for you after your run" 

Okay, it's obviously very paraphrased but I did told him something that went along those lines. It's creepy, ain't it? My linguistic abilities have obviously not been getting any better. I have no photos to post and nothing much to say.

Waiting waiting waiting. Getting so impatient and I'm already having scenarios played out in my head. I really want nothing bad comes out of this. I'm immature, childish and just so crude with my words sometimes. I don't treat you differently. And when I called you "annoying", I didn't mean for the class to laugh at you. I'm a bitch, sorry. I wanted to slap myself. 

Sorry, I really don't know where I am getting at again. 

Anyway, I think I'm poison. About time we make our choice, in my opinion. To stay strong or to just stab myself. Can't live a day if my used to be NEG really disappears. 


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sat in the shower with the water running for an hour

CCA Withdrawal Syndrome 

Just when I thought I could finally get some proper work done, I find myself scouring through YouTube to search for videos of choirs singing. It's sad. No, not sad. Pathetic. Just so so pathetic. This absolutely qualifies for a Choir Geek status. 

Goodness, I won't be singing in a choir ever again. It's so so sad. Well, unless there's a perma alumni choir. It's just vibration in the air and now words on my blog. It might become reality someday :) 

Kudos to us, once again. I thought it was a job well done, considering we only picked up the song the day before the performance. -insert a congratulatory e-card-

In other news, the June holidays are coming up and I have plans. Plans to study my arse off and do RELATIVELY better for MYCTs. 

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Northern Lights <3

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From Singapore to  Dubai

Tumblr, my favourite hangout ever:

Its 16th May. Today, I have come to realise that I am indeed very different from many others my age. In a good way, I could call myself being unique or even being an individual. In reality, old-fashioned I am. People ask me with a tone of disgust - sometimes -, "You gonna marry him?" All I have for that is "Why not? Anything's possible, no?" 

Tomorrow will be pretty awesome in my opinion. Two hours free in the beginning of the day and school ends relatively early - with no more choir and all. This brings me to one night ago. I was crying over the phone, like a  girl who just found out that the boy didn't like her at all.

So here's to you:

Dear Bitch, 
I know it's been two years since I've addressed anyone as that - so, be honoured. I don't hate you, I really don't. Disgusted - an awful word - should be the right word to use. I am disgusted by you. I could write an essay on the reasons why, but I won't. Too tired - school has been wearing me out lately. Sometimes, I wish I could have done more for us and got to know you better, when it wasn't too late. (I really don't know where I am getting at) 


Urgh, I should have known from all that last-minute cancellations of dates and you thinking you're so cool.


I don't know what to do. I feel like a hypocrite. Seeing you everyday, every morning and smiling at you because I have to. 


It's obvious I am a complete coward, knowing you wouldn't read this at all. Sighhhhhh... I really didn't mean to call you Bitch in the opening line - but it was the only word I could think of. Tramp, Slut, Despogirlz1994. It doesn't work. Bitch works. It's universally friendly, in a way. I don't know - I wish I could turn back time and just repeat my entire JC education. The academics are really horrible but it was all worth it.

9th of May. I have been feeling disturbed before I go to bed every night after my trip. :'( 

A few more days to VoyAJe. I think I'm a sour lady so I am just going to rant. I cannot believe how unsupportive friends can be. Well, maybe they weren't my friends to start with. OMFG, I'm so mean :(

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I slept thru' the last 12 hours++ I'm not sure if I am jet lagged. Man, I miss Italy already and spending time with the choir and all. So many things happened there and it was so tiring there. I enjoyed the times there though. 
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Also, this trip to Italy was obviously a golden opportunity for my camera to get some loving.
My favourites from the trip: